that I didn’t believe you when you said
You loved me
You cared about me
You wanted to be there for me
But I thought you were lying
How could I not?
All I’ve ever known is people who
Why would I ever expect you to be
You didn’t tell me that you loved me
that you cared about me
that you wanted to be there for me
That it took me so long
but I just couldn’t rationalize the idea
that you were capable of being This
with the picture
that you always taught me to see
that I believed you when you told me
that because you were different,
you would never do the same things
that you only care about me
If it would reflect badly on you
if you didn’t.
you’ll never hear this
and you’ll never see this
because I’m not talking to you.
I’m talking to the Me that still believes you
Because one day,
She’ll have to be the one
And I’m sorry
that she had to go through that.
She isn’t me anymore.
Maybe she never was